Life in the fast lane…

I’m impatient.

I want things when I want them, and I don’t like to wait. Just today driving home from Chicago, I went through a toll on I-88. The cost was $1 even. The car ahead of me at the teller, holding me up from my destination, was being handed back bills AND COIN. Immediately upon seeing this, out of my mouth I question WHY she’s being given coin back when it’s a nice rounded fee. I didn’t ask because I cared, I asked because in my mind this transaction just cost me time I could be that much closer to home. Or in reality, 10 seconds.

My flesh screams for RIGHT NOW.

My heart aches for God’s Timing.

I’m a go getter. Everyday I run a hundred miles per hour until I crash, just to get up and do it all over again. It’s why I am up after midnight writing this blog until it’s just right, knowing I have to be up at 6:30am for work.

Perhaps in my journey of busyness, I am missing something God has for me.

“Be still, and know that I am God.” ~Psalm 46:10

Ever since I can remember, my mother has told me that I need to slow down; realign my priorities. I thought my mom was just old and tired in saying these things.

God has given me a heart for people. I care deeply, I love madly, and I would do anything to help a friend…even at the expense of my own family. I would deprive even my own kids to help a stranger.

Talk about mixed up priorities. I think my mom was onto something…

“Be still, and know that I am God.” ~Psalm 46:10

I’ve got many commitments outside of my home and my career. Commitments to my recovery and my church. To my kid’s schools and to my friends. And I finally have them all written on paper and am learning that I am one person with many talents who simply cannot do it all.

So moved to the top of my list, my #1 commitment for today is to “Be still, and know that I am God.” ~Psalm 46:10

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